Sickness.
So much for feeling better the other day, felt worse yesterday and had to call in sick. No work and no traveling to see Blondie for Jolicious! Sigh. So these past day and a half has been very slow, and the no energy is really taking the best out of me. Walking up the stairs from laundry last night had me out of breath and gave me a pounding head, so the last machines never got finished so I had to wring out the cold water by hand and hang it and that half hour had me passed out with no energy left! Sounds like fun, ey?
Well, my little Dutchie Snowie (Kimberley) has had me entertained (Thanks heaven for What’sApp), the poor thing’s sick too! Today has been uneventful, watching some Supernatural, playing wordfeud and draw something, thanks heaven for friends, and talking to mom on the phone and Nina and Snowie! <3
You and me, baby,
thru fire and ice.
Sunshine and rain,
laughter and pain.
Thru good times and bad!
No words can ever explain,
what you mean to me.
Now I’m taking the opportunity while my head is cooperating with me and feeding my music addiction with the AWESOME rock band Hinder! I love Austin Winkler’s hoarse and raspy voice, the music is great and I really like their lyrics!
Have a great one peeps, where ever you are in your day!
Live it. Love it.
xx Jolicious
Oh, how lovely.
The past few days I’ve been suffering from a terrible migraine, feeling worn down and overall mushy. Despite that I’m still feeling tired and the headache coming and going I feel a bit better. But as much as I would need a days rest I have plenty laundry to do, so I just have to rest in between.
Tomorrow (Saturday) I’m going away with one of the people I work at and I’m hopefully getting to hug my dear Blondie too! I hate to have my girls so spread out, but what can you do? More than grab the opportunities when they’re being offered to you!
When they say the world is a smaller place I can merely agree partly. They never take in to consideration how big it seem when your friends, or even family, lives in another continent / country / state / town far away…

Live it. Love it.
xx Jolicious
Long time coming.
Realized I’ve kinda forgotten about my blog, and the the posts that I had in mind just stuck there… Shame on me! Well I’ve been feeling much better lately first Saturday of march I was at a friend and her baby boy Loui, her bf treated us witch lunch at the restaurant where he’s the head chef! It was delicious! The friend and baby-time was soo needed, I instantly felt more energized and motivated physically, mentally and emotionally. Today I hope I’ll see my friend Emmie (which is much overdue) that is about 7 months pregnant.
Here comes a few pictures from the past two weeks! ..and yeah, I’ve gone redhead!
Faithful love.
My baby boy Greyson was cuddly last night!

Me & my ‘babies’ <3

They be ‘monsters’ at times, but they never fail to give me love!
Live it. Love it.
xx Jolicious
Willpower.
Hey peeps!
I have been very low for a while and haven’t been feeling like blogging. I strongly dislike spreading negativity when I in my own head can’t turn it into something positive. It’s odd how you can feel really good in the days, smile and laugh about things and a few hours later just get completely drained in energy, joy and will of life. I love life, I’m getting more and more homesick, missing my girls and feeling like I’m falling apart into pieces. Sometimes I don’t know who I am, have I lost myself along the road? Well, not really, I know that the former me is still in there.. I’m not that good of an actor, I used to be an all smily, positive, happy and over all life loving girl. I know deep down she’s still inside me, just waiting patiently to find her way back to the surface. I know I should find someone that I could trust that could help me deal with this, I have let this go on for too long. ‘Cus I know, that in a few years time, if I let this go on much longer I won’t have much willpower to overcome my own thoughts. That’s the only reason that I’m still able to write this, willpower, I want to live!
I read through an old blog from a few years back, what can I say. My ability of putting my feelings into words were definitely better. But what caught my eye was the way I ended one of those posts.
I’m pouring from the heart. Weeping blood. Feeling empty. Feeling blank. I will never be the same. I’m lost beyond words. Am I truly fooling you all??
And sometimes I still wonder that, am I fooling you all with my cheerful pretendings? Or do people just don’t care enough? Trust issues? Yep. Sure I do have people that I trust and that I know care, but when you are sitting there in your own thoughts it’s hard to see it. I wish I could split myself up to be with all my loved ones at the same time, that would be frickin fabulous! Last night was better than many of the previous ones, so I cross my fingers that it’s a trend that will last. I’m sick of feeling low and cry, I’ve cried more than anyone should do in a lifetime…….
Live it. Love it.
xx Jolicious
Valentines Day.
Normally I don’t like Valentine’s day, as I think that it’s just another one of those holidays over-commercialized by the stores. It’s a reason for the stores to sell as much cheesy-ass junk as possible. My point is that you should show the loved ones ALL THE TIME that you love them, not just once a year with some mass-produced card without any personal thought. So I thought that this year, after almost 3 years as a single lady, I’m going to dedicate my Valentine’s Day to the ones that NEVER fails me, that ALWAYS are there in time of need, with a good advice or just something to make me laugh; My darlings, my precious girlfriends! I’ve said it before, but I can’t say it often enough, how much I love my girls! In my life, people that stick around long enough or care enough to get inside my head and start to break down the walls around me are rare. Even though I’m an open girl that loves people it doesn’t mean I let anyone in and starting to trust people that easy. I’ve been let down one too many times, even by a person I considered family, but it doesn’t mean that I don’t care for people. Because I do! I need to take better care of my heart, not even a strong passionate heart can heal when it get’s too scarred. So…. Let the people that are always there for you know how important they are in your life, how much you appreciate their love, thoughts, support, care and laughs (or whatever it might be). Weather it’s your sister, mother, brother, father, boy-/girlfriend or “just” your best friend – show him/her/them that you love them! Make a personal card or something else that will mean something to that person, whatever that might be!
This one right here goes to my girls;
Thess & Nina - my sisters from other misters! Frostlilja & Sabina – for everything we’ve been through! Abby & Lara - I sincerely hope I get to see my US girls within a near future! Kimberley (Snow White), Daphne (Ariel) & Mindy (Belle) - My Dutchers, that always makes me laugh and always are there with an ear, Cinderella is here for you! LeeLee – For the nice talks and discussions! Simone, Cassandra, Rebecca & Zahra - My teenies, my ‘bro’ & my girls, thank you for all the laughs and memories! I want you all to know how much you mean to me, that you are important in my life and that I’ll always have your back! If it means to lend an ear or just a mental shoulder – count me in! You mean the world to me!
I have surely have missed to mention someone, but if you are there – in my daily life, irl or online – you matter! Mom (& dad) if you read this, I love you endlessly… Thank you for everything you do for me, I wish I could ever pay you back! I LOVE YOU!!
Friends are the family we choose for ourselves!
Live it. Love it.
xx Jolicious





